The Kitchen Family

g o a l s

 I've been feeling a bit DOWN the past couple of days. Not really smiling that much. Not sure why. I hate when I let myself feel this way, let my attitude change. Cause I know my attitude is a choice. Well, last night while venting to my wonderful husband that lends a listening ear at anytime, I think I figured out WHY I've been a little down. Of course I could say the normal small things that probably contributed a little like... I'm missing my family in Utah MORE THAN EVER OR I wish I could hang out with Loni today OR I haven't been the best mom/wife I could be this week. But I think Brock 'hit it right on the head' when he asked me if I have made any GOALS lately. I didn't even have to think about it, the answer is NO. I need to feel more productive, know that I'm working towards something important in my life. So...today I will be making some goals. I will name a few of the "not so personal" ones here:

1. Be the best mom I can be under all circumstances.

This is a HARD one, but needed. At times I get so caught up in life and worry about the not so important things, when I should be giving my all to my kids. This morning I asked Cohen what he wanted to do today and he quickly replied, "Vacuum!" Oh man. I need to get out with my boys more and stop cleaning so much when they are awake. It makes such a big difference in their day, especially Co's, if we get out of our house during the day. But most important I need to give them my FULL attention more during the day, instead of wanting to get everything checked off my 'To Do' list. Focus more on teaching them.
2. Keep a positive attitude and look forward to every day.

I need to keep the attitude of my sweet Cohen. Walking into Cohen's room first thing in the morning and before I can even get the door he happily yells "Mama, I waked up!" Without fail, everyday he is excited and ready to start a new day and make it good. I love that my two year old is already one amazing example in my life.
3. Live in the NOW.
At times I find myself wishing...or wanting time to pass by quicker so life can be "better" or easier. What am I thinking when I do this?! Medical school and two little boys is tough, but such an amazing experience already and we're just getting started. I don't want to find myself missing the small things in life. The other morning Cohen and I were having a dance party {trying to get my spirit up/exercise a little} and a Keith Urban song came on called "Better Life". Some of the lyrics are, "We ain't got much now, we're just startin' out. But I know somehow paradise is comin'. Someday baby, you and I are gonna be the ones, so hold on, we're headed for a better life." I believe these words when I look at things financially. But, in any other way...life can't get better than this. I was singing this song thinking "Yes, one day life will be perfect when I live in St. George again and have money!" I don't want to think this way. I want to live in the NOW and love doing it, whether I'm poor in Texas or not.
Anyways...
I'm feeling positive and ready to start accomplishing goals.
Wish me luck!
Oh, and here are some pics of reasons why I can never be DOWN too long...

 {Showing off the muscles after doing push-ups with Daddy}

 {The chubby cheeks I get to kiss all day long if I want}

 {What makes me most happy is when I see sincere brotherly love}